How is it October... just... how...

I’ve got a list a mile long of changes I want to make to my site. Like finally putting up my work portfolio again. Taking down the Inktober work from ages ago. Re-listing cards and prints. Changing the header. GAH. It will come.

In the meantime, life marches on. It’s fully fall now, and the leaves are dropping. Despite the 70 degree temps I can feel the shift in my body to winter mode. I’m ready for it. Bring on cozy nights with the wood stove and piles of blankets!

I’ve made some mental shifts over the last month. I’m trying a new medication to offset my moments of depression… I’ll give it another month before I make any decisions on how that’s going. I also had a big ole fire and burned some things that carried a lot of heavy shame and guilt. I hadn’t realized how storing them in the attic was just weighing on me. Yay for woo-woo fire-making and speaking your truth out loud even if no one is around (maybe especially if no one is around)! 🙂 I’ve also wandered down a rabbit hole of discovering what Codependency really is, and while I don’t like constantly putting labels on “who I am” — I can honestly say that reading the materials I have found has opened my eyes to my behaviour and vocabulary, and why they are the way they are (in part).

I recently have made some new friends, one of whom just went through breaking up with his partner of several years. Part of the reason he said, was that he could no longer keep trying to help someone who wouldn’t help themselves. I don’t want to be that person, so I’ve taken a deep breathe and jumped back into working on being closer to the person I think I can be. I’m closing in on 50 years old, and I’d like the next 50 to be a little more peaceful, inside and out. Be well, everyone.