threads

I was thinking about red thread the other day…. specifically the Red Thread of Fate, "This magical cord may stretch or tangle, but never break." I’ve always liked the visual imagery of two people linked with a red thread. And of course I googled a little bit and went down a rabbit hole of red thread and evil eyes and all sorts of interesting things. I happen to have a spool of red thread and sketched it out a few times. I love how commonplace items can take on personalities as I draw them, as I get to know them. This seems like a very wise spool.

Let’s get caught up on therapy as well! It’s still pretty intense. Last week it felt like I hit rock bottom in discovering some pretty horrible sides of myself that I had developed over the years. “Horrible” in the sense that they are outdated defense mechanisms, coping skills that aren’t needed any more. Throw in a little bit of projection and general confusion about wondering why I say and do the things I do to people I care about, and, well, it’s a bit of mess. I need to hope for some forgiveness from others and work on some forgiveness of myself. It’s all a process and I can only continue to learn and acknowledge that there is a version of myself that is ready to let go of past hurts and be free. Onwards!