Being sad in the light
/I’m sure there is something that triggers it, but sometimes I just feel …. sad. It creeps up on me and then I scramble, looking around, wondering what is wrong… and usually there is nothing. It’s difficult, and I end up replaying weeks worth of conversations, thinking about all the tasks I haven’t started, and in general sinking into a minor depression. I am fully aware it’s happening, and can go through all the public motions of “coping” — going for walks, seeing friends, getting a massage, completing work projects — but inside I know I just need to wait it out. The sun is out for a few days, which is unexpected, and I am least appreciating the irony of feeling miserable in the warmth and light. Just keeping it honest around here :-)
